Week 22 – I am going to be able to do what with my emotions?

OK – am going to admit….this scroll is for me!  Absolutely! Most definitely!   We started reading Scroll VI (Og Mandino’s The Greatest Salesman in the World) this past week and WOW! It’s all about thoughts on how we are to ‘master’ our emotions.  Notice this is not being in ‘control’ but being the ‘master’ of. Significant difference.

download (10)download (11)Being in control of something means there is resistance.  

Being master of something should be effortless.

To take it even further, the Master Key Experience was timed (perfectly of course) to include techniques on how to turn thoughts of fear, guilt, anger, unworthiness and hurt feelings into tools meant to enhance our experience during this lifetime, to help us accomplish our dharma – all in the manner we were intended to do so (before the outside world and it’s BS – beef stroganoff – got a hold of us).

I have spent my entire life trying to ‘control’ my emotions – keep them in check – but they were always there! Now I find out that if we turn each of these draining emotion into a positive tool, or to take these feelings and attach a positive spin to it, not only are we able to master the feelings, we master the experience – allowing it to be what we want it to be.

My mother’s advise when I was a teen was to “please….please…find some kind of balance” since I was either really “high” (happy) or really “low” (sad, hurt, depressed, etc.). What did I do?  I blocked the emotions. I surppressed them.  Stomping them down into my core.

Was I able to control them? Yes.

Had I mastered them? Heck no!

Decades later I went through an extremely challenging time period in my career. I was no longer able to control my emotions.  I went to the doctor and explained my symptoms…I was waking up at night crying, I was snapping at everything and everyone (especially those I loved with all my heart and this was tearing me up), and my left eye was twitching…it would not stop. What was wrong with me?

I was diagnosed with a form of stress and given medication. Years of medication! Medication which allowed me to ‘control’ my emotional state so I could continue to function at work, at home, in public.  But I certainly did not ‘master’ anything.  I found that it certainly did help to control the severity of the lows but you know what? It also toned down all the highs.  I had finally done what my mother had recommended I learn how to do….I was at neutral.

Neutral is not a very nice place to be.  You may not experience angst but you ALSO do not experience joy.

Once I made the decision to take back my life, it took me over a year but I finally got myself off the medication. It was just before we started the Master Key Experience – how very synchronistic.

(Courtesy of Og’s scroll IV) I am now in a position to be the…..

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To everyone else who struggles…remember it IS possible to master your emotions. Do not allow anyone (including yourself) to take the highlights away from you. Experience your life without the haze.  

Hop on and enjoy the ride for all that it is worth.  We only get to be here, at this moment in time, as ourselves, once!  

Thank you for allowing me to share!
Please drop by again.
Carolynn Sokil

16 thoughts on “Week 22 – I am going to be able to do what with my emotions?

  1. Rob Langley

    Glad you`re off the meds and feeling better for it Carolynn. I too decided to pack in some meds and heal myself. Haanel`s Part 22 sums it up nicely this week.

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  2. Brian Norin

    I was in neutral for a while, which was better than what preceded it. That is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift. Manifest your Bliss today!

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    1. Carolynn Post author

      I am blessed to be here at this time – experiencing this class with you. If I can share any ray of hope and courage my dharma has been touched. Thank you for stopping by!

      Reply

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